feeling lonely...

hello humans. im feeling so lonely now. no one to talk to. and i just made more humans hate me for my stupid doings. well, its like normal in my life for humans to hate me. but i really hate it. how i wish i have a normal life and not stuck in dis dark life of mine.. i hope i can make more frens at poly..and finally find the love of my life. there is a way for me to remove my emotional self...but its almost impossible...for a girl to accept my love. i really hope dat girl comes to my life faster coz i cant handle dis pain any longer. i really want to remove my emotional side but i cant do it alone. please god...help me find dat girl... oh and i hope no one hate me for wat i just say..